On the Eve of New Year’s Eve (2020)

Posted December 31, 2020 by tambarr1 in Favorites / 0 Comments

I started this blog five years ago tonight. I was so gung ho about it. I couldn’t think of a better way to share my ideas and thoughts with others than to start a blog. I was inspired by one of my closest friends to get started. At the time, I had no idea where I wanted my blog to go or what I wanted it to be about, I was just doing something that I interested me and brought me joy. I had not considered the care and attention it would require of me to grow a following and maintain it. I only knew that I had something to say, something to contribute, and it seemed that starting a blog would allow me to do just that. Little did I know that I would allow comparisons and the lack of buy in from certain family members and friends to make me feel like I wasn’t making a difference that my blog wasn’t necessary. Those thoughts took precedence and settled in my mind like soot after an extinguished fire. I allowed the lack of or absence of validation from others to make me feel like something that I enjoyed doing was irrelevant and unnecessary.

That was five years ago, and so much has happened in my life. I have had some rough times and I have made some bad decisions all because I did not know what I was actually capable of, I didn’t know just how valuable my contribution to this world is. Because of the last five years and especially 2020, my life has changed. One of my favorite authors wrote that “there are some years that ask questions, and some years that answer”, and for me 2020 has been a year that has given me not only a clearer vision but has given me the questions for which to seek the answers. Like who am I supposed to be in this life, and how do I become her? Why am I insecure? Why do I seek validation from others when I am capable of validating myself? Why do I dim my light? Why do I compare myself to others when I know that does not bring me happiness? What is my purpose in this life? Why are you afraid to be great? Why are you so hard on yourself?

I have spent so many years wandering and wondering, and y’all, I am tired of that life. In fact, I am done with that life. On the Eve of New Years Eve 2020, I realize that it is time for a complete revision of my life in all aspects, and that revision has already begun. I hope y’all are ready for the changes that are coming this year here on the blog and with some other ventures that I have on deck. I am once again excited and inspired to bring this dream, this vision of mine to fruition.

So I’ll end with this, I wish for you the same wish I have for myself: that you are given exactly everything that you desire, that you can dream of, that you have imagined for your life, and for you to remember that this is the one life you have to make it all come true. Please do not spend one minute more doubting your greatness. Just step into your greatness, y’all, and own it.

Happy 2021