Re-Vive

I love this.:

Revive- to restore to life or consciousness.

Earlier this month, I wrote down in my planner that one of my goals for the summer would be to revive my blog.  You see, becoming a mom again, this time at 43, has left me with very little time to dedicate to my life let alone my blog.  So when I made the goal to revive the blog, I had no idea how much reviving my blog would bring me consciousness.

Blogging gives me purpose.

Blogging makes me deliberate.  If I blog about it, then I am more apt to do it, to make it happen.  I actually do my best living when I am blogging.  But what keeps me from blogging as often as I’d like is the the notion that my life has to be perfect like what I assume is the case for all the bloggers. Well, let me just be clear with you, ain’t sh** perfect about my life.  My house is untidy, my kids are not always compliant, and my personal life could use some help.  To be honest, there are days when I just don’t want to and can’t bring myself to do life.  There are days when the sink is overflowing and the mounds of laundry are taller than me.  These are the days that blogging seems like a lie, as if I am presenting a series of untruths about my life, that instead of reporting my life as it is, I am reporting it as I imagine it to be. The main reason, and really the only reason, I started this blog in the first place was to share my truth. To share with you all that that even though my life sometimes stinks, I still keep going.

Truth be told, blogging challenges me to live my life as I see fit to design it (sounds cliche, right?). Well, it does.  Blogging brings my thoughts to life, and it makes my dreams a reality.  So in essence, by reviving the blog, I am reviving me!